Drunk

TylerDurden · Posted: 16 Dec 2008 08:58 pm Post subject: Drunk

Those that know me on here know that I suffer from severe depression irl. And that I also suffer from Bi-Polar disorder. This makes me highly unstable mood-wise.

When my mood disorder acts up, I can go from slightly normal to suicidal in less than a few seconds. I can also react with extreme violence in almost any situation. Even ones that shouldn't preclude violent actions. But I can still react that way even when not provoked.

I have been in therapy for close to 15 years, and I'm only 25. I've been on over 30 different medications since I was 14, ranging from treatment from severe sleep disorders to treatment for disassociative personality disorder(multiple personality disorder in layman terms). I hit several breakthroughs in my treatment over the past 5-7 years. With these breakthroughs has come the absolute worst I've faced in all this time. I've survived an onslaught of suicidal depression over several hours at a time at least 50 times over the past few years as a result of me finally being able to feel joy for the first time in my life after 20 years of life. (It's just how my chemical imbalance works. I bounce from extremely euphoric states to physically, staggering anger and suicidal depression.)

No real reason to post this really. Just part of another smaller issue I have: OCD.
When I want to do something, I just do it. No remorse until several hours to several years afterwards. No thought of consequence during or before. I just do it. If I feel like setting my shoes on fire, I will do it. If I feel like bitch slapping my own dad for no reason, I will do it. So I guess I'm doing this on impulse, it's hard to keep up lol.

Anyways, just felt like saying, hey all I'm drunk, feeling good for maybe the 5th time in 6 months, and wanted to do this I guess.

Happy Holidays. Fuck all the asshole cocksucking faggots here who hate me without knowing why they are hating me, but are just ignorant jack ass cocksmoking cunts who juggle cocks in their throat regularly and don't know what they are provoking within those they don't even know.

TylerDurden

P.S. "If you want peace; prepare for war." (I love that movie just for that saying and that rockabilly guy with the guitar happy

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happyguy44 · Posted: 16 Dec 2008 09:21 pm Post subject:

sorry to hear that

hope you continue to feel good like you are at the time you posted that

gmoney475 · Posted: 16 Dec 2008 10:49 pm Post subject: Re: Drunk

Logic. · Posted: 17 Dec 2008 12:05 am Post subject:

no offence but you sound like a total retard

like really retard as in crazy not just saying that

anyway gl on becomeing not retarded and happy holidays to you also derisive

Lamborghini · Posted: 17 Dec 2008 01:28 am Post subject:

TylerDurden · Posted: 17 Dec 2008 06:38 am Post subject:

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TylerDurden · Posted: 17 Dec 2008 06:01 pm Post subject:

No sense it getting up in arms guys.

I'm not defenseless. Jsp'ing and inet arguments are when legitimate, a battle of wits.
I'm far more equipped than most normal people to handle this kind of thing.

I say don't be concerned because he's a forum faggot. That means he thinks he wins an argument by flaming you, and not your point. He thinks he wins by saying he won.

I mean, from what I've observed, with most people you can have 20 people telling someone on the internet that Volkswagon made the car called the Beatle, and that it's oft' referred to as a "punch buggy." They will continue to say that Subaru made the Bug, and that they are called, idfk, a fucking goon-mobile.

Like I've already stated before. Unless they are a concern to me, I don't care about them. At the moment he's acting ignorant to gain attention, which you guys are giving him, which is why I'm even posting.

TylerDurden

Logic. · Posted: 17 Dec 2008 07:15 pm Post subject:

i really dont care what any of you think of me i speak my mind and not what everyone wants to hear if thats makes me a douche than so be it

guess its better than being a scammer:
fletchboy lambo etc

but thats beside the point seeing as you only seem to deny it only two people that arnt complete mornons who have posted here beside my self is happyguy and mxracer what rest of you could get hit by a car and i would sit back and laugh..

that being said happy holidays smile

Logic. · Posted: 17 Dec 2008 07:20 pm Post subject:

also this will be my last post in this topic since your all obviously handycapped.

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